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Sekalung doa buatmu agar tenang disana, insyaAllah.

Sent by N.
USA

The Notes #2

Sent by NZ.

Tu me manques trop!

Ku coba mengerti

ku coba memberi

Semua yang kau mau

Belahan jiwaku

Tak ingin menunggu

Hati penuh duga

Tanpa jawabanmu

Kau buatku luka

J’ai perdu mai raison

Me laisse à l’abandon

Dis moi où va ma vie

Si tu es loin d’ici, loin d’ici

Walaupun berakhir

Kau masih disini

Walaupun berakhir

Biarku bermimpi

Tentang kita

Je regarde en arrière

J’y vois couler une larme

J’ai perdu mes repères

La couleur de mon âme

Hanya ada do’a

Yang aku ucapkan

Atas nama cinta

Dibawah rembulan

Semua asa hilang

Ditelan sang malam

Yang aku cintai

Mengapa kau pergi, kau pergi

Walaupun berakhir

Kau masih disini

Walaupun berakhir

Biarku bermimpi

Tentang kita

Meme si tu es parti

je t’imagine encore

meme si tu es parti

je te serrai encore bien plus fort, bien plus fort, plus fort

p/s Syaiqkal Hashfee, tu me manques trop!

The Notes #1

My heart is broken. Trust me, that's not just expression. I felt it, every single bit breaking from whole. I still love her. Its true, maybe it's a real first love, I believe it's true love, I will never let it go. I want to fight for it, even if it seems pointless. I'll never give up. Yes, I love you, and I always will. Until dying days come. And even in death, I'm forever yours.

I am so need her. Ya Allah help me.

I will love her forever and not even a day less.

14th June 2011.

Sent by NZ.

Now

Almost every night my (suppose to be boyfriend) that past away dates me in my dreams.

I love him now.

And yes it's too late.

Sent by NM.

I MISS YOU, SYAIQKAL!

He is a friend to remember,
a friend we love so much.
The memory runs through my mind
of the last time we met.

He lived a life of happiness,
a life filled with love.
He was always there to make you
laugh when your day was going wrong.
Where was he the day where we
had to say "so long?"

Why did it have to end this way in so much pain?
Since he left this world, things have
never been the same.

I can no longer look forward to
tomorrows anymore,
because I know that they will never
be the way they were before.

Not seeing his face,
not hearing his voice.
I wish there could
have been some choice.

Life can begin and end so fast.
The memory of Syaiqkal Hashfee will always last.

I wish there was some way
I could have said goodbye.
The thought of him runs through
my head as I look up in the sky.

Knowing he is looking down on us
with a smile on his face,
remembering the life he lived before
he left this place.
If his life didn't end so quick
he would have gotten far.
He could get what ever things he wants.
I know you have always wanted her so much.

So as I end this poem I want others and me as well to remember this:

Live your life to the fullest
because it could end real fast.
Base your life on the future,
but keep memories of the past.
We miss you Syaiqkal Hashfee.

To the girl he had been so in love all this while.
Yes you, if you are reading this.
You should know he have never stop loving you at all.
He had love you so much at any given time he had.
But somehow you have to know, all he wants is to make you happy.
He wanted to make you the happiest person in this world.
So please be.
And above all, he loves you too much.

Sent by D.

Only The Best

A heart of gold stopped beating,
two shining eyes at rest,
God broke our hearts to prove,
He only takes the best.

God knows you had to leave us,
but you did not go alone,
for part of us went with you,
the day He took you home.

To some you are forgotten,
to others just part of the past,
but to us who loved and lost you,
the memory will always last.

*You are the best we ever had, Syaiqkal Hashfee Bin Adam Syariff
Al-Fatihah.

Lots of love, M&D.

Syaiqkal Hashfee

Syaiqkal,

This one is for you.
I know it's a little too late for me to say anything to you.
But I just need you to know that I'll keep each and every memories of us forever.
I know it's impossible for me or anyone else who knows you to find some other people like you.

Syaiqkal,
You're a man with lots of love, patient, tenderness and care.
You make each and everyone you know feel as much as this lost.


Sent by NM

He left but he loved her much. Now we really know.

Embun di pagi buta
Menebarkan bau asa
Detik demi detik ku hitung
Inikah saat ku pergi

Oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
Berikanlah aku hidup
Takkan ku sakiti dia
Hukum aku bila terjadi

Aku tak mudah untuk mencintai
Aku tak mudah mengaku ku cinta
Aku tak mudah mengatakan
Aku jatuh cinta

Senandungku hanya untuk cinta
Tirakatku hanya untuk engkau
Tiada dusta sumpah ku cinta
Sampai ku menutup mata
Cintaku sampai ku menutup mata

Oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
Berikanlah aku hidup
Takkan ku sakiti dia
Hukum aku bila terjadi

The many usaid things

Sorry I never told you
All the things I wanted to say
And now it's too late to hold you
'Cause you've flown away
So far away

Never had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feeling and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive
Alive

Darling, I never showed you
Assumed you'd always be there
I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
In my own way
And I miss the love we once shared

Although the sun will never shine the same
I'll always look to a brighter day
I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray

Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say

There were so many things I did not say
When I looked into your eyes
The things I think about each day
The things I think about you
Would take you by surprise

The wonders of what we could share
Still powder in my mind
I wondered if I could tell you how much I cared
And I guess I ran out of time

Now even you're gone
It is not stopping me
From telling you how I feel
Maybe this is the way it should be
So I'll try and keep it real
Forever
I am keeping this memory with me

We have known each other for quite some time
Then we became good friends

We were kinda something for awhile
But we know that never really lasts
I always felt as if my heart was on trial
And now it's a thing of the past

Now that I want that love we once shared again
Now that I want all your tenderness and care
I know that you really had loved me
But did I really care?
I know I don't

So many things I think about
You probably never knew
A lot of many unsaid things
That I have never told you.


You said you want to play this song on your guitar on your wedding. I guess I'm not gonna get the chance to see you play this song for the person you really love. I thought you want to love her like how Henry love Lucy in 50 First Dates? Why did you have to go so early?


Sent by N.

The last friday; 26 Aug 2011

Arwah went to his last Friday prayer really so early.
It was only almost 12 noon and he already make his move.
It's weird.
But then he answered; Jumaat terakhir Ramadhan ini; gi masjid awal jom! :)

We miss you.

Sent by AWH

The Good Die Young

They said the good die young
But baby boy i don't think it was time for you to go
Your life was about so much more.
Some are bound to die young
By dying young a person stays young in people's memory.

You never said "I'm leaving;"
You never said goodbye.
You were gone before I knew it,
And only God knew why.
A million times I needed you;
A million times I cried.
If love alone could have saved you,
You never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly;
In death I love you still;
In my heart you hold a place,
That no one else can fill.
It broke my heart to lose you,
But you didn't go alone,
For part of me went with you,
The day Allah took you home.

When you're gone SH.

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through
The day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
And when you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too

And when you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through
The day and make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah

And all I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
And when you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too

And when you're gone
All the words I need to hear will always get me through
The day and make it ok
I miss you

I MISS YOU, sent by D.

You've warned us

Some of the last trace he left.

We should have notice this.

And it's you who left us :'(

So you already knew this?

Sigh~
Wallahualam.

Sent by Y.

One week

Too hard to accept.

But that's it.

Allah is the greatest.

It's death.

Not questionable.

It's fate.

Not changeable.

On a day like today as in last week, we lost the man we be friend with, fell in love with, or been loved by. The man anyone wished to marry, the man who taught the value of integrity in the workplace, in the home, in life and in my heart. 

A compassionate man whose capacity for love soared above all else. He taught people to appreciate, to value education and family, work ethically, build strong relationships, honor marriage, and fight for what we believe in. 

He was always there for me in times of need and his strength in life will now be mine. I will honor his memory forever. Thank you God for the gift of such person for us to be with in life. Even it is just for a very short while, we at least know there is such a good person like this in this crazy world. Today, a week after. My heart is broken. Still. Rest in Peace Syaiqkal Hashfee Bin Adam Syariff.

I am thankful to know this one of the best God creation and I hope by writing about him here could help to ease my pain away. 

You're Really Missed

Without You
by Ron Tranmer ©

It’s different here without you.
It’s as if there is no sun.
Darkness now surrounds me.
My world seems so undone.

You were my life, my everything,
but now sweetheart you’ve gone.
Somehow I must find faith in God
and let my life go on.

They say time mends a broken heart.
If true, time is my friend.
I’ll count the days until the time
you’re in my arms again.


Treasured Moments
by Ron Tranmer ©

I treasure every moment
you spent in life with me.
I hoped to have you longer,
but it’s not meant to be.

You left this world so suddenly.
I think my heart went too.
I feel so lost and lonely,
and I cry from missing you.

I know you’re in a better place.
I know you’re happy there.
I know one day I’ll join you,
but the wait is hard to bear.

My heart feels like it’s breaking
as I try to carry on.
You were my life, my everything,
but now sweetheart, you’ve gone.

I’ll count the years until the time
I join you there above.
Where then we’ll be, eternally,
together again my love.

Emptiness

Of course you can't imagine life without him. It's too soon. So sudden.
Everyone needs time to grieve. Some longer than others.
I keep reminding myself how lucky I am. I had him in my life.
If only for a short time , but I have memories of him.
The pain will ease the loss but it takes longer.
Just take it one day at a time for now.