Tomorrow is New Year!

You should be 24 years old tomorrow.
Don't you miss the December girl you told me about?

I miss you!

Remember this picture?
I accidentally scrolled to this just now. And I miss you!

Al-Fatihah.

I hope you are way happier now.

And yes I still miss you.

In a good way :)

You play me the love song of life

I can't explain into words the feelings I get when I listen to this song. It almost helps me recollect all the beauties that exist around me and appreciate them more. All is love...The piano melody expresses the ideas that cannot be conveyed verbally. I miss your piano plays, Syaiqkal.

I miss you.

Back to December 2010 please!

Syaiqkal,

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you.

Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.

I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.

I go back to December all the time.

These days I haven't been sleeping,

Staying up, playing back myself leavin'.

When your birthday passed and I didn't call.

And I think about summer, all the beautiful times,

I watched you laughing from the passenger side.

Realized that I loved you in the fall.

And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind

You gave me all your love and all I gave you was "Goodbye".

I miss your sweet smile.

Maybe this is wishful thinking,

Probably mindless dreaming,

But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right.

N

Missing YOU

Last night I had a dream of you.
Yes I miss you.
We miss you.



You were always there with a smile.
I Miss You too much.
CH

Rindu

AL-FATIHAH

BH

One Sweet Boy

There was one sweet boy.
He spoke all his words gently.
He smiled bright sincerely.
He gazed his moves and touches every heart.
Yes, and now he is gone.

HANIKAMAL

03122011

Kelip-kelip kusangka api, Kalau api mana puntungnya, Hilang ghaib kusangka mati, Kalau mati mana kuburnya. I want to visit...

By MAZ

Dear Syaiqkal!

I've had never forgot you! Dear Syaiq, It's been a long time since my last chat with you... and that long time had been my last time chatting with you.. I miss our old time. Chatting from the morning until late night. Laugh at each other.. Sharing your favourite oldies songs. I miss how close we were long time ago. but now, there's nothing can be done anymore. you're not here anymore. with us. I MISS YA' SYIQKAL :') 

Sincerely, IR

Too much

Tonight, here. I miss you too much Syaiqkal Hashfee.
Yes, too much to bare.
The hardest thing I have done is to live without you.
To only live with the memories of you.


NZ

We miss you terribly!

Come back and make the faces again.

Make us all smile again.

It's been so long since you've gone.

It's been so long we was left in the darkness you left.

We miss you.

Really we do.

How are we suppose to tell you this?

That we misses you too much.

Terribly.

Everyday.

Al-Fatihah, buddy!

DD

Rindu yang berlainan

Rindu pada kawan yg jauh ada.
Tapi rindu pada kawan yg tiada, lain rasanya.

DH

29/10/11 : 2 Bulan

Semoga awak senantiasa tenang di sana dan ditempatkan di kalangan orang-orang yang beriman.
Amin.

AL-FATIHAH.

NAM

Bawalah Cintaku by AFGAN

Sumpah tak ada lagi
Kesempatan untuk ku
Bisa bersamamu
Kini ku tau
Bagaimana cara ku
Untuk dapat trus denganmu

Bawalah pergi cintaku
Pada ke mana pun kau mau
Jadikan temanmu
Temanmu paling kau cinta
Di sini ku pun begitu
Trus cintaimu di hidupku
Di dalam hatiku
Sampai waktu yang pertemukan
Kita nanti

#Awak selalu suruh sy dengar lagu ni and tengok video klip skali, but sy xda masa lgsung nk tengok sampai lah hari saya tahu awak dah pergi buat selama-lamanya. And now saya dah faham kenapa awak suka dengar lagu ni. I miss you Syaiqkal. I hope you senantiasa tenang di sana dan ditempatkan di kalangan para syuhada...Amin. AL-FATIHAH <3

p/s :thanks admin sebab buat this blog.At least I can ease my pain that I'm facing. Thank You, May ALLAH bless you always. Amin :)

Sent by NAM

Admin's Note To Readers

I apologize for any inconvenience caused by the writing from this blog. Somehow you people need to understand that I have mentioned earlier that this blog is to embrace the memories we all had with the late Syaiqkal Hashfee.  Please take all the writing posted from those people who knew the late Syaiqkal positively. I'm writing this blog with the hope that this could ease the pain I'm facing, and you are facing too. Therefore, please take this in a good way. I did mentioned this too before; In the sweet memories he left, I'm writing this pieces for me and the rest to always remember him in all our daily routine. I (we) will never want to forget this very memorable man. I would also like to thank the content contributors.

"Together we share this big lost."

Admin

I am sorry

It pains me to admit that I think about you more now than I did when you were alive. It hurts to know the fact that I will never see you again. I am sorry I did not pay much attention when you talked to me all this while. I am sorry I did not support you one some little thing you did. I am sorry I left you in that screw time. I can’t say it has been easy learning to live without you. I am sorry I wasn't there for you.


Sent by NNM.

The Notes #3 : A Letter from Arwah Syaiqkal To An UNKNOWN

(Admin: sorry could not upload the note's picture as I did before due to some problem)

Hi beautiful, 

I couldn't sleep tonight. This breezing lovely night felt so cold. Somehow it felt a little bit warm by just thinking of you. Today you made me smile so much. I was smiling while driving, walking, eating and I guess even when I'm sleeping (soon). 

I don't know why I am writing this. Somehow I really hope that this letter never gets to you, because if it does that means I am gone. It also means I never had time to show you just how much I really did love you.

You have shown me what love is and what it feels like to really love someone. You are the beat of my heart, the soul in my body; you are me, because without you I am nothing. I love you too much. More than  any words could ever describe. You are the best thing in my life. You are the person who made me smile when the whole world turned me down.

You have shown me how to live and you have shown me how to be truly happy. I want you to know that every time I smile, you are the one who have put it there. You make me smile when others can't. I want you to know how much you mean to me. You are my whole world and I love you with all my heart. You are my happiness.

I have a dream one day, if we are really mean to be together, I do not want to fall asleep but I want to watch you sleeping. I need to see you sleeping blissfully, breathing in the love I shared. Well, I guess my wish is finally here now. If you receive this letter, it means I'm already gone. Therefore I really can look over you as you sleep and keep you safe in your dreams. I will always be looking over you to make sure you're safe.

My love, I want to say something and I mean this more than I ever did before. You were the love of my life, the girl of my dreams. Just because I have passed away does not mean I am not with you. I'll always be there looking over you, keeping you safe. So whenever you feel lonely, just close your eyes and I'll be there, right by your side.

I hope if I'm gone by the time you read this, I am gone as your husband because I want to be with you in that beautiful promising afterlife. Love you always and forever.

Syaiqkal Hashfee.

Your forever lover.

Sent by NZ

You told me that you're okay

'You told me that you are okay, but I know you are not!' You always told me about that girl. You love her, you adore her, you stalk her every single second... You told me you are okay, but I know you are not. Everyday you are crying because you miss her. But she never give you some space. And when I ask you WHY you still hope for her? Then you answer like nothing hurt inside your heart that "I am happy if she's happy, and I will always pray the best for her eventho I know I can't be with her".

Dear Allah, I am missing you so badly right now, no more ym buzzing from you to wake me up for SUBUH :( 4 years knowing you never make me regret SYAIQKAL HASHFEE. I wish that I can meet you again and say that I am LOVING, MISSING and CARE about you every single second :( 

Sent By: Someone who secretly loving you.

The Mint Choc Chip Memories :(

And as much as I wanna see your name come across my phone screen, ask me out and you'll be all smiling listening to all my problems, I know it's not happening. Just had my first Mint Chocolate Chip without you. The last I had it with you like when? Last April? I'm tearing, big brother and dear bestest friend! :'(

Al-Fatihah.

I'm improving to be a better person, big brother.
If just you're here, you'll be proud seeing the person I've become.
It's all because of you.
Sorry, we didn't have much time to really fly to Honolulu, huh? :(
Anyway,  don't be sad because I think you're about to break your first promise ever to me; yeah you told me you'll be there on my wedding and be the happiest person. I think I'm gonna forgive you on this, brother. Somehow I know you're always with me. Yes, always. Because you're deep down there in my heart.

Sent by Your always little sister, Y.

We miss you

I wish you could come back to us. We miss each of you so bad. If there was something, anything that could be done to bring you back, we would. Rest in peace, we miss you.

I did three things today; miss you, miss you, and miss you.

Sent by ED.

That Girl

He told me about this one girl he loved.
This very one girl he knew for quite a long period of time.
A girl he have never stop loving.

p.s Girl, why didn't you give him any chance?

You are missed!

I still can't manage to find someone like you. When will I?
That you, that very you. You brought happiness and smile to everyone's life.
Where can I find someone like you?

The pain that took you away :(

Dearest Dead Friend, Syaiqkal Hashfee.

I know we've had our fights... But you gave me a reason to wake up in the morning. You have made all things that have been bringing me down, go away. I never repayed you. You never asked, so I left it. I should have repayed your generosity, but I was foolish.

You were strong through it all. But that pain took over. You didn't care about life tomorrow, you cared about now. But, now...I wish I was at your side. I was a bad friend. If you were still alive, I would be the best friend you could ever have. You tried so hard to survive another minute...another second. But somehow you let go life and left us all.

You were strong, it's just that the pain was stronger. It killed you. I miss you dearly. I would give anything to revive your taken life. I wish I could kill the pain that took you. I wouldn't feel this bad. If you were alive, I would be happy. But you are not. I miss you Syaiqkal Hashfee.

Wish you were here, Syaiqkal Hashfee.

Sent by HN.

Back to 26th August 2011

I texted him and wish 'selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin'.
He replied : Penang raya awalkah? Hahaha,Maaf zahir batin juga :)
I replied back : Saja, tergerak hati nak text u, hope u always happy and dah ready nak raya yer :D
He replied : InsyaAllah, thank you.

Last conversation between me and him before the day he left us. Serious after pada tuu rasa lain mcm, rupanya ada something happen dekat dia. But apa pon benda dah happen, semoga dia sentiasa tenang di sana senantiasa.
Al-fatihah again.

Sent by NAM

290911

hari ni dah one month syaiqkal hashfee pergi. sungguh cepat masa berlalu. semoga dia sentiasa tenang di sana. (al-fatihah)

p/s : as i said before, i will always pray for you. the best! missing you so badly :(

lots of love : NAM

290911

Sebulan.
Sekalung doa buatmu agar tenang disana, insyaAllah.

Sent by N.
USA

The Notes #2

Sent by NZ.

Tu me manques trop!

Ku coba mengerti

ku coba memberi

Semua yang kau mau

Belahan jiwaku

Tak ingin menunggu

Hati penuh duga

Tanpa jawabanmu

Kau buatku luka

J’ai perdu mai raison

Me laisse à l’abandon

Dis moi où va ma vie

Si tu es loin d’ici, loin d’ici

Walaupun berakhir

Kau masih disini

Walaupun berakhir

Biarku bermimpi

Tentang kita

Je regarde en arrière

J’y vois couler une larme

J’ai perdu mes repères

La couleur de mon âme

Hanya ada do’a

Yang aku ucapkan

Atas nama cinta

Dibawah rembulan

Semua asa hilang

Ditelan sang malam

Yang aku cintai

Mengapa kau pergi, kau pergi

Walaupun berakhir

Kau masih disini

Walaupun berakhir

Biarku bermimpi

Tentang kita

Meme si tu es parti

je t’imagine encore

meme si tu es parti

je te serrai encore bien plus fort, bien plus fort, plus fort

p/s Syaiqkal Hashfee, tu me manques trop!

The Notes #1

My heart is broken. Trust me, that's not just expression. I felt it, every single bit breaking from whole. I still love her. Its true, maybe it's a real first love, I believe it's true love, I will never let it go. I want to fight for it, even if it seems pointless. I'll never give up. Yes, I love you, and I always will. Until dying days come. And even in death, I'm forever yours.

I am so need her. Ya Allah help me.

I will love her forever and not even a day less.

14th June 2011.

Sent by NZ.

Now

Almost every night my (suppose to be boyfriend) that past away dates me in my dreams.

I love him now.

And yes it's too late.

Sent by NM.

I MISS YOU, SYAIQKAL!

He is a friend to remember,
a friend we love so much.
The memory runs through my mind
of the last time we met.

He lived a life of happiness,
a life filled with love.
He was always there to make you
laugh when your day was going wrong.
Where was he the day where we
had to say "so long?"

Why did it have to end this way in so much pain?
Since he left this world, things have
never been the same.

I can no longer look forward to
tomorrows anymore,
because I know that they will never
be the way they were before.

Not seeing his face,
not hearing his voice.
I wish there could
have been some choice.

Life can begin and end so fast.
The memory of Syaiqkal Hashfee will always last.

I wish there was some way
I could have said goodbye.
The thought of him runs through
my head as I look up in the sky.

Knowing he is looking down on us
with a smile on his face,
remembering the life he lived before
he left this place.
If his life didn't end so quick
he would have gotten far.
He could get what ever things he wants.
I know you have always wanted her so much.

So as I end this poem I want others and me as well to remember this:

Live your life to the fullest
because it could end real fast.
Base your life on the future,
but keep memories of the past.
We miss you Syaiqkal Hashfee.

To the girl he had been so in love all this while.
Yes you, if you are reading this.
You should know he have never stop loving you at all.
He had love you so much at any given time he had.
But somehow you have to know, all he wants is to make you happy.
He wanted to make you the happiest person in this world.
So please be.
And above all, he loves you too much.

Sent by D.

Only The Best

A heart of gold stopped beating,
two shining eyes at rest,
God broke our hearts to prove,
He only takes the best.

God knows you had to leave us,
but you did not go alone,
for part of us went with you,
the day He took you home.

To some you are forgotten,
to others just part of the past,
but to us who loved and lost you,
the memory will always last.

*You are the best we ever had, Syaiqkal Hashfee Bin Adam Syariff
Al-Fatihah.

Lots of love, M&D.

Syaiqkal Hashfee

Syaiqkal,

This one is for you.
I know it's a little too late for me to say anything to you.
But I just need you to know that I'll keep each and every memories of us forever.
I know it's impossible for me or anyone else who knows you to find some other people like you.

Syaiqkal,
You're a man with lots of love, patient, tenderness and care.
You make each and everyone you know feel as much as this lost.


Sent by NM

He left but he loved her much. Now we really know.

Embun di pagi buta
Menebarkan bau asa
Detik demi detik ku hitung
Inikah saat ku pergi

Oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
Berikanlah aku hidup
Takkan ku sakiti dia
Hukum aku bila terjadi

Aku tak mudah untuk mencintai
Aku tak mudah mengaku ku cinta
Aku tak mudah mengatakan
Aku jatuh cinta

Senandungku hanya untuk cinta
Tirakatku hanya untuk engkau
Tiada dusta sumpah ku cinta
Sampai ku menutup mata
Cintaku sampai ku menutup mata

Oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
Berikanlah aku hidup
Takkan ku sakiti dia
Hukum aku bila terjadi

The many usaid things

Sorry I never told you
All the things I wanted to say
And now it's too late to hold you
'Cause you've flown away
So far away

Never had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feeling and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive
Alive

Darling, I never showed you
Assumed you'd always be there
I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
In my own way
And I miss the love we once shared

Although the sun will never shine the same
I'll always look to a brighter day
I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray

Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say

There were so many things I did not say
When I looked into your eyes
The things I think about each day
The things I think about you
Would take you by surprise

The wonders of what we could share
Still powder in my mind
I wondered if I could tell you how much I cared
And I guess I ran out of time

Now even you're gone
It is not stopping me
From telling you how I feel
Maybe this is the way it should be
So I'll try and keep it real
Forever
I am keeping this memory with me

We have known each other for quite some time
Then we became good friends

We were kinda something for awhile
But we know that never really lasts
I always felt as if my heart was on trial
And now it's a thing of the past

Now that I want that love we once shared again
Now that I want all your tenderness and care
I know that you really had loved me
But did I really care?
I know I don't

So many things I think about
You probably never knew
A lot of many unsaid things
That I have never told you.


You said you want to play this song on your guitar on your wedding. I guess I'm not gonna get the chance to see you play this song for the person you really love. I thought you want to love her like how Henry love Lucy in 50 First Dates? Why did you have to go so early?


Sent by N.

The last friday; 26 Aug 2011

Arwah went to his last Friday prayer really so early.
It was only almost 12 noon and he already make his move.
It's weird.
But then he answered; Jumaat terakhir Ramadhan ini; gi masjid awal jom! :)

We miss you.

Sent by AWH

The Good Die Young

They said the good die young
But baby boy i don't think it was time for you to go
Your life was about so much more.
Some are bound to die young
By dying young a person stays young in people's memory.

You never said "I'm leaving;"
You never said goodbye.
You were gone before I knew it,
And only God knew why.
A million times I needed you;
A million times I cried.
If love alone could have saved you,
You never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly;
In death I love you still;
In my heart you hold a place,
That no one else can fill.
It broke my heart to lose you,
But you didn't go alone,
For part of me went with you,
The day Allah took you home.

When you're gone SH.

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through
The day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
And when you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too

And when you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through
The day and make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah

And all I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
And when you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too

And when you're gone
All the words I need to hear will always get me through
The day and make it ok
I miss you

I MISS YOU, sent by D.

You've warned us

Some of the last trace he left.

We should have notice this.

And it's you who left us :'(

So you already knew this?

Sigh~
Wallahualam.

Sent by Y.

One week

Too hard to accept.

But that's it.

Allah is the greatest.

It's death.

Not questionable.

It's fate.

Not changeable.

On a day like today as in last week, we lost the man we be friend with, fell in love with, or been loved by. The man anyone wished to marry, the man who taught the value of integrity in the workplace, in the home, in life and in my heart. 

A compassionate man whose capacity for love soared above all else. He taught people to appreciate, to value education and family, work ethically, build strong relationships, honor marriage, and fight for what we believe in. 

He was always there for me in times of need and his strength in life will now be mine. I will honor his memory forever. Thank you God for the gift of such person for us to be with in life. Even it is just for a very short while, we at least know there is such a good person like this in this crazy world. Today, a week after. My heart is broken. Still. Rest in Peace Syaiqkal Hashfee Bin Adam Syariff.

I am thankful to know this one of the best God creation and I hope by writing about him here could help to ease my pain away. 

You're Really Missed

Without You
by Ron Tranmer ©

It’s different here without you.
It’s as if there is no sun.
Darkness now surrounds me.
My world seems so undone.

You were my life, my everything,
but now sweetheart you’ve gone.
Somehow I must find faith in God
and let my life go on.

They say time mends a broken heart.
If true, time is my friend.
I’ll count the days until the time
you’re in my arms again.


Treasured Moments
by Ron Tranmer ©

I treasure every moment
you spent in life with me.
I hoped to have you longer,
but it’s not meant to be.

You left this world so suddenly.
I think my heart went too.
I feel so lost and lonely,
and I cry from missing you.

I know you’re in a better place.
I know you’re happy there.
I know one day I’ll join you,
but the wait is hard to bear.

My heart feels like it’s breaking
as I try to carry on.
You were my life, my everything,
but now sweetheart, you’ve gone.

I’ll count the years until the time
I join you there above.
Where then we’ll be, eternally,
together again my love.

Emptiness

Of course you can't imagine life without him. It's too soon. So sudden.
Everyone needs time to grieve. Some longer than others.
I keep reminding myself how lucky I am. I had him in my life.
If only for a short time , but I have memories of him.
The pain will ease the loss but it takes longer.
Just take it one day at a time for now.

You will always be in our hearts

You always there when I feel bad,
You always help when times are bad.
You always encourage me when I'm down,
You always are near when I'm far,
You always are in my heart,
Even now you're gone. Forever.

You have always wanted to make a special tribute video to your very dearly late Princess Diana you adored so much. You should have make one today if you're still here I'm sure.

You missed your Eid ul-Fitr!

Lost.
Silence.
And it is the Eid ul-Fitr.
Yes, you wanted so much that one pair suit of white Baju Melayu.