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#Awak selalu suruh sy dengar lagu ni and tengok video klip skali, but sy xda masa lgsung nk tengok sampai lah hari saya tahu awak dah pergi buat selama-lamanya. And now saya dah faham kenapa awak suka dengar lagu ni. I miss you Syaiqkal. I hope you senantiasa tenang di sana dan ditempatkan di kalangan para syuhada...Amin. AL-FATIHAH <3

p/s :thanks admin sebab buat this blog.At least I can ease my pain that I'm facing. Thank You, May ALLAH bless you always. Amin :)

Sent by NAM

Admin's Note To Readers

I apologize for any inconvenience caused by the writing from this blog. Somehow you people need to understand that I have mentioned earlier that this blog is to embrace the memories we all had with the late Syaiqkal Hashfee.  Please take all the writing posted from those people who knew the late Syaiqkal positively. I'm writing this blog with the hope that this could ease the pain I'm facing, and you are facing too. Therefore, please take this in a good way. I did mentioned this too before; In the sweet memories he left, I'm writing this pieces for me and the rest to always remember him in all our daily routine. I (we) will never want to forget this very memorable man. I would also like to thank the content contributors.

"Together we share this big lost."

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I am sorry

It pains me to admit that I think about you more now than I did when you were alive. It hurts to know the fact that I will never see you again. I am sorry I did not pay much attention when you talked to me all this while. I am sorry I did not support you one some little thing you did. I am sorry I left you in that screw time. I can’t say it has been easy learning to live without you. I am sorry I wasn't there for you.


Sent by NNM.

The Notes #3 : A Letter from Arwah Syaiqkal To An UNKNOWN

(Admin: sorry could not upload the note's picture as I did before due to some problem)

Hi beautiful, 

I couldn't sleep tonight. This breezing lovely night felt so cold. Somehow it felt a little bit warm by just thinking of you. Today you made me smile so much. I was smiling while driving, walking, eating and I guess even when I'm sleeping (soon). 

I don't know why I am writing this. Somehow I really hope that this letter never gets to you, because if it does that means I am gone. It also means I never had time to show you just how much I really did love you.

You have shown me what love is and what it feels like to really love someone. You are the beat of my heart, the soul in my body; you are me, because without you I am nothing. I love you too much. More than  any words could ever describe. You are the best thing in my life. You are the person who made me smile when the whole world turned me down.

You have shown me how to live and you have shown me how to be truly happy. I want you to know that every time I smile, you are the one who have put it there. You make me smile when others can't. I want you to know how much you mean to me. You are my whole world and I love you with all my heart. You are my happiness.

I have a dream one day, if we are really mean to be together, I do not want to fall asleep but I want to watch you sleeping. I need to see you sleeping blissfully, breathing in the love I shared. Well, I guess my wish is finally here now. If you receive this letter, it means I'm already gone. Therefore I really can look over you as you sleep and keep you safe in your dreams. I will always be looking over you to make sure you're safe.

My love, I want to say something and I mean this more than I ever did before. You were the love of my life, the girl of my dreams. Just because I have passed away does not mean I am not with you. I'll always be there looking over you, keeping you safe. So whenever you feel lonely, just close your eyes and I'll be there, right by your side.

I hope if I'm gone by the time you read this, I am gone as your husband because I want to be with you in that beautiful promising afterlife. Love you always and forever.

Syaiqkal Hashfee.

Your forever lover.

Sent by NZ

You told me that you're okay

'You told me that you are okay, but I know you are not!' You always told me about that girl. You love her, you adore her, you stalk her every single second... You told me you are okay, but I know you are not. Everyday you are crying because you miss her. But she never give you some space. And when I ask you WHY you still hope for her? Then you answer like nothing hurt inside your heart that "I am happy if she's happy, and I will always pray the best for her eventho I know I can't be with her".

Dear Allah, I am missing you so badly right now, no more ym buzzing from you to wake me up for SUBUH :( 4 years knowing you never make me regret SYAIQKAL HASHFEE. I wish that I can meet you again and say that I am LOVING, MISSING and CARE about you every single second :( 

Sent By: Someone who secretly loving you.

The Mint Choc Chip Memories :(

And as much as I wanna see your name come across my phone screen, ask me out and you'll be all smiling listening to all my problems, I know it's not happening. Just had my first Mint Chocolate Chip without you. The last I had it with you like when? Last April? I'm tearing, big brother and dear bestest friend! :'(

Al-Fatihah.

I'm improving to be a better person, big brother.
If just you're here, you'll be proud seeing the person I've become.
It's all because of you.
Sorry, we didn't have much time to really fly to Honolulu, huh? :(
Anyway,  don't be sad because I think you're about to break your first promise ever to me; yeah you told me you'll be there on my wedding and be the happiest person. I think I'm gonna forgive you on this, brother. Somehow I know you're always with me. Yes, always. Because you're deep down there in my heart.

Sent by Your always little sister, Y.

We miss you

I wish you could come back to us. We miss each of you so bad. If there was something, anything that could be done to bring you back, we would. Rest in peace, we miss you.

I did three things today; miss you, miss you, and miss you.

Sent by ED.

That Girl

He told me about this one girl he loved.
This very one girl he knew for quite a long period of time.
A girl he have never stop loving.

p.s Girl, why didn't you give him any chance?

You are missed!

I still can't manage to find someone like you. When will I?
That you, that very you. You brought happiness and smile to everyone's life.
Where can I find someone like you?

The pain that took you away :(

Dearest Dead Friend, Syaiqkal Hashfee.

I know we've had our fights... But you gave me a reason to wake up in the morning. You have made all things that have been bringing me down, go away. I never repayed you. You never asked, so I left it. I should have repayed your generosity, but I was foolish.

You were strong through it all. But that pain took over. You didn't care about life tomorrow, you cared about now. But, now...I wish I was at your side. I was a bad friend. If you were still alive, I would be the best friend you could ever have. You tried so hard to survive another minute...another second. But somehow you let go life and left us all.

You were strong, it's just that the pain was stronger. It killed you. I miss you dearly. I would give anything to revive your taken life. I wish I could kill the pain that took you. I wouldn't feel this bad. If you were alive, I would be happy. But you are not. I miss you Syaiqkal Hashfee.

Wish you were here, Syaiqkal Hashfee.

Sent by HN.

Back to 26th August 2011

I texted him and wish 'selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin'.
He replied : Penang raya awalkah? Hahaha,Maaf zahir batin juga :)
I replied back : Saja, tergerak hati nak text u, hope u always happy and dah ready nak raya yer :D
He replied : InsyaAllah, thank you.

Last conversation between me and him before the day he left us. Serious after pada tuu rasa lain mcm, rupanya ada something happen dekat dia. But apa pon benda dah happen, semoga dia sentiasa tenang di sana senantiasa.
Al-fatihah again.

Sent by NAM

290911

hari ni dah one month syaiqkal hashfee pergi. sungguh cepat masa berlalu. semoga dia sentiasa tenang di sana. (al-fatihah)

p/s : as i said before, i will always pray for you. the best! missing you so badly :(

lots of love : NAM